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The new apartment is really becoming quite a home. There have been masterpieces created in the kitchen, sweet dreams slept in the bedrooms, and plenty of good music and side-splitting laughter in the living room.

Over the weekend I fell in love with our balcony. It's on the third floor, with only one open side, looking down on the pool even though a great oak tree blocks out everything but a roof and swatch of sky. This morning I watched that sky warm up from navy to pink to blue as I read and pondered.

Psalms 17: 5-8 

My steps have held closely to Your paths [to the tracks of the One Who has gone on before]; my feet have not slipped. I have called upon You, O God, for You will hear me; incline Your ear to me and hear my speech. Show Your marvelous loving-kindness, O You Who save by Your right hand those who trust and take refuge in You from those who rise up against them. Keep and guard me as the pupil of Your eye; hide me in the shadow of Your wings.

Psalms 37: 3-7

Trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) in the Lord and do good; so shall you dwell in the land and feed surely on His faithfulness, and truly you shall be fed. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass. And He will make your uprightness and right standing with God go forth as the light, and your justice and right as [the shining sun of] the noonday. Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself upon Him; fret not yourself because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked devices to pass.

I started thinking about a few actions that are begging to be executed. They are entirely motivated by fear and self-preservation. But how do I remember that I am guarded as the pupil of His eye, when I want to build myself a little fortress and disappear for a while? How much damage would I do if I 'helped' Him out a little? How do I patiently.... lean?

My friend Timothy blogged about this today. He's a cool kid.

After pondering the confusing things, the question marks turned into notes on a staff, the music was perfect and the lyrics said this- I am guarded, regardless of my rememberance. I have a good Father who takes care of me. The Love we have is growing from my end. It's already infinite from His. What can destroy that? What can trivialize it?

Not a darn thing.

Hallelujah.